i wanna give up

I regret going this path
its not for me

i really dont wanna meet people
i cant
i dk how to overcome it
shld i see a doctor for this?
but i dont wanna spend money on

I wanna give up

i know i should work harder
but i dont know what's the point
i cant even cut a fish to serve people, how do i even help ppl
lol.. i know thats irrelevent

what am i doing with my life

i cant even help myself how do i help people

but i dont wanna burden people with such small problems.

i cant help but think im  useless
i knowing saying that about myself doesnt help myself get better

but thats all i know how to do...

im losing confidence everyday cos everything i do is wrong, giving wrong info, saying the wrong things..

if im quiet im wrong, if i talk im also wrong, cos i say wrong stuff


tian ah, why am i even born when i cant even do stuff right

one sided

back here to rant lol
this blog's suppose to be about lazy tips but it turned out to be my ranting blog lol.
I don't have anyone that I can tell problems to mah..
but my problems are small anyway.. so dun wanna tell ppl to burden them lor.
or it may seem small to them but it really affects me greatly...

but in this post i shall not rant about sad stuff, i shall rant about my secret lol

and i kinda have a secret that ive been keeping in me that's tearing me apart... lol it may sounds stupid to you, but idky it's mentally torturing the hell out of me.

so the secret is...


i dont swing that way...
hais i still cant say the actual words... maybe bcos i cant accept myself.

I dont wanna tell anyone about this is because i feel that it's not important?
cos i dont think ill ever go into it? but i cant stop my feelings. i hate that i fall to easily..
but i dont think i fall easily to anyone leh.. in poly i didnt to anyone eh.
I think i fall for ppl who care about me.. and those who respond to my lameness..?idk i still cant understand.
but i hope it's puppy ai and i hope that i can get over it soon cos it hurts when... nvm

I sound so dumb right hahaha

somemore wo dont hv the looks and the brains, where got zi ge go and like ppl or even ppl to like me back dui bu dui?