Wow time flies eh? 2023 liao
Still in the same job for almost 5 years.
Not saying it's a bad thing, im actually quite thankful for this stable job during the covid years.
I came here to post again maybe cos im really really sad and i dont wanna burden anyone with my small problems.
Idk.. Im questioning my career again
The only thing that motivates me at work are friends, and theyre leaving to another place one by one.
Im just sososo sad all of a sudden.
Idky also.. And my period's over.. So cannot be hormones right.
Is like suddenly feeling uselesss
Like why i cant communicate to people better.
Why cant i do simple stuff like crack an egg.
Sigh
Sometimes i question myself, why do i even exist.
Or why did i survived the choking of vit C when i was young.
Why did i survive the pool
Then when i think about that i owe my parents sth that i can nvr return cos they saved my life. And that makes me feel even more of a burden.
Such a burden kid.
I know its no use to think abt this, and i should just do sth about it and be a btr person.
But idk its hard cos when u feel this way, its hard to motivate urself to do stuff and be btr.
Plus there are other ppl having it worse than me, 我怎么有资格 feel this way leh?
Idk
Im feeling extremely down and i cant slp.
Maybe i just need someone to tell me
"Issokay to be a useless shit"
"Issokay, ure still contributing to society by providing co2 to the plants for photosynthesis"
tmr i needa overtime 2 hrs
But issokay.
Got more money right?
