I don't know what's wrong with me...
I feel that I'm not normal. ok it's obviouisly im not, by the way i behave.
I have difficulty interacting with ppl and i dont know how to explain it.
Sometimes i think I might be autistic, but then I dont think I am, cos i'm not smart.
Autistic ppl are super smart and talented.
maybe i'm just weird
U know there's a saying you gotta love yourself first before others can.
but it's so hard.. cos im starting to believe im not normal
and bcos of that im scared to go out wtih frens, scared to walk with them, bcos i dont wanna embarass them.
i'll walk behind or infront..
im trying to tell myself that everyone is different, and it's ok to be weird.
I hate it that in public I'll randomly think about stuff and unknowingly talk or nod to myself.
and my fren saw it and thought it was retarded.. and i was quite affected by it even though i know that she was joking.
do i notice i do these weird stuff? ofc i do.. but idk why i do this.
im not so insecure before... idk why nowadays i start to feel like this.
I wanna find my old self back
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